lavi's quiet for a moment, and it seems just for the briefest of moments -- that he might not say anything at all. then,]
I'm not supposed to feel anything.
[then he laughs a little, scrubbing at his face]
I know it sounds stupid. [EDGY, HE MEANS] But that was how I was raised, trained for. I keep telling myself to keep a neutral eye on everything, and I keep fucking it up.
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lavi's quiet for a moment, and it seems just for the briefest of moments -- that he might not say anything at all. then,]
I'm not supposed to feel anything.
[then he laughs a little, scrubbing at his face]
I know it sounds stupid. [EDGY, HE MEANS] But that was how I was raised, trained for. I keep telling myself to keep a neutral eye on everything, and I keep fucking it up.